Headshots

"Headshot" is a term from modeling and theater. It refers to the photo of a model or actor's face that accompanies their resume or c.v. Such things are not allowed in most professions, given the potential for discrimination, but they are allowed-- even required-- in those fields where your face is one of your qualifications.

Evidently, someone was advertising their business, which was taking such photos. They used one of the headshots they had taken in the ad to show the quality and style of their photography. They then plastered these posters across the city; "He's everywhere," from a wall to a lamppost. "Turn the corner, and he's still there."

Apparently, there was no other information on the posters: "The sign said 'headshots'... a picture of a boy and a number you could call... and that was all."

Since there were so many posters, the lighting conditions in each case was different, which made each photo look different (even though it was the exact same image each time). In one case, a "shadow" fell across just the eyes in the image, and the viewer noted that this "can... make the difference/ In what you see."

As in "Marlene on the Wall," the speaker imagines the image being able to see the people looking at it, "Watching all the people/ Who are passing unaware."

While Marlene Dietrich's image simply "regards" her viewers in that song, the boy in this headshot seems to pass "judgment" on those who pass him. Perhaps he holds an air of arrogance or disdain... or perhaps this is just read into his expression by the viewer.

This negative interpretation of the boy's expression could be explained by the viewer's negative mood, in turn explained by the fact that the "day" was "cold and gray." Or maybe something more than just the weather?

"The boy becomes a picture/ Of guilt and sympathy." So... now the boy is not disdainful but pitiful and pitying for some reason.

"And so I think of you/ (and) Of the days we were together." The boy's image is nothing, really, but a reminder of a lost love. "I knew that you loved me/ That was the difference/ In what we see." (We know the relationship is in the past because of the word "were," "memory," and "history.")

A shadow across the picture of a face-- which was not part of the original image but only an accident of its placement-- can change the way one sees that face nevertheless. Similarly, her love for her lover was altered by the fact that she knew her love was returned. If she knew it was unrequited, she would have felt differently, as she now does.

That reciprocated love was nothing she caused, and yet it changed the way she saw him-- just like the shadow changed the way she saw the boy's face.

The song closes with the words "that's history," to mean that the relationship is over (and that maybe she should stop obsessing about it). But it's also the way we see past events-- through the lens of the present.

One generation, for instance, sees in a historic figure like Andrew Jackson a bold general and strong president. A later generation may see the same person as violent and bigoted. Jackson himself, of course, no longer has any say in the matter. He's just a face on some currency.

There have been numerous psychological studies on this issue. One study runs thus: In one case, a person is told they have failed a test, in the other that they passed admirably. In each case, an un-involved person is standing perhaps 10 feet away. Later, the test-takers are asked what they think of that person. Those who did well saw them favorably: "He seemed like a nice guy." Those who failed disliked him: "He was just standing there, listening to the teacher tell me I failed! What a jerk!"

The bad news for the speaker is that everything seems to remind her of her rejection, since even a nondescript poster-face seems to be judging her as a loser.

The good news for us is that if someone treats us poorly, we can now know that it may have nothing to do with us-- maybe we were just there when that other person was mad at the weather or heard some bad news.

Next Song: Caramel

Night Vision

This song is an unusual lullaby. Most such songs are simple phrases about sleep itself or the comfort of a nearby motherly presence.

This lullaby offers concrete advice for confronting the under-bed and closet-dwelling monsters that shadows create in small children's bedrooms: "By night beware... half the world [lies] in fear" due to nightfall.

No, you won't be able to see well once the Sun has set, the speaker admits to her young charge: "The table, the guitar, the empty glass/ All will blend together when the daylight has passed."

However, you are not without resources you can marshal to your defense, she continues. You can still tell what objects are without color to help, when "darkness" places "her hand across your face."

How? By looking at their silhouettes: "Find the line, find the shape," she teaches. "Find the outline-- Things will/ Tell you their name."

This way, you can once again feel mastery over your room, she concluded. Everything is the same-- it only looks different. So you have to adapt... and see differently.

The key is to remember not to be afraid in the first place. Keep your wits about you: "Don't give in too quickly" to fear.

The speaker at last says she can "watch" the child "falling into sleep... watch your... eyes dim/ In blind faith." Ultimately, sleep arrives, but peacefully now. The child has come to trust her surroundings as being familiar and safe. She can relax enough to sleep.

The song ends with the speaker admitting her own limitations. "I would shelter you [emphasis mine]/ And keep you in light." In an ideal world, it would always be easy to see our surroundings and to feel control over them.

However, not even Mommy can keep the Sun from going down. And, as much as she'd love to, she can't always be there for her child.

But she can teach her child to need her less, and to learn to navigate the shadows alone: "I can only teach you/ Night vision," the ability to see without very much light, and to fill in the world with your own knowledge of it when there is little light to help.

Next Song: Solitude Standing